Wednesday, May 10, 2006

The Pleasure of my Company







Howdy Ya'll,

I wonder if living in China for a year is/has changing(ed) my strong southern accent. I bet Gennie would say no, but she never had a southern accent, so that doesn't count. I know that when I speak Chinese they dont say I have a southern accent, they just say that my Chinese is good, which actually isnt a compliment because they will say that even if you know how to say like 4 words.

Last week I had a week off so I read books like a mad man!! Here was my reading list for last week:

1. "The Pleasure of My Company" - Steve Martin - This book is actually about a guy who has some MAJOR mental issues. For example, he can't cross the street at a sidewalk because of the curb, thus he has to find dug out drive ways to cross streets. He falls in love with a girl, but decides he cant really love her becuase her name isnt a palendrome(sp?). He also goes running in dress clothes and has a compulsary habit of buying 15 sticks of chap stick at the same time. At all times he has to have 1128 watts of Light Bulb luminousity in his house, which much be unbroken by doors so that the light can "mingle."

Thoughts: It was not the best book I've ever read, but it was however very entertaining.
Stars: * * * 1/2

2. "Into Thin Air" - John Kraukauer - Ive read most of this before, but I read it in about 8 hours flat. I forgot how friggin Intense that book is. For those of you who dont know, this book is about the 1996 Everest Disaster where many people from seperate expeditions died on Everest. The book took on a really weird feeling seeing as how ive stared at Everest in person and I've also been to grave sites at base camp.

Thoughts: READ IT, READ IT, READ IT!!!
Stars: * * * * 1/2 (only 4 1/2 because its a kinda outdoorsy kinda book, so some may not enjoy)

3. Buddhism - Some English Weirdo who doesnt know the Truth - I read this book because I have over the last 6 months been developing a curriculum for teaching T.betan Buddhism compared to Christianity. Very interesting stuff, but It really depressed me because its what my students deal with on a daily basis, sad...

Thoughts: Dont read it unless you are seeking education
Stars: -1


4. "Dragon In the Land of the Snows" - I havent finished this book, its a longgg looonggg loonggg book about T.betan History written by a T.betan who lives in America. It's certainly banned here in China, but its said to be the best record of the last 100 years of T.betan history, thus making it a must for me. Its really important to know the history of the place that I live and also the History of the people. I have visited most of the places in this book also, so its personal as well. Also, the fact that you know about these events and also have travelled to those places gives you an incredible amount of credibility in the T.betan's eyes.

Thoughts: Semi Interesting, but dont read it unless you have 2 straight weeks on your hand, or are just interested in T.bet
Stars: * *

5. "Celebration of Discipline" - Foster - Havent finished this one either. To be honest I've been incredibly disillusioned with Chr.istian self-help books, but I've been intending to read this book for quiet a while, so Im gonna finish it this week. I like it so far, but I still have trouble with Chr.stian self-help books. By no means am I speaking solely about this book, but I usually get frustrated when Humans say "This is how it is!!" and then pump you up about it and then tend to extrapolate things to an extreme without using scripture to back it. Probably one of the reasons that I thought half of "Wild at Heart" was good and the other half was... nevermind.

Thoughts: So far, its pretty good. Pleasantly surprised!
Stars: * * * 1/2

6. "Blue Like Jazz" - Don Miller - Read it again, still good but started taking some of the stuff as theory rather than fact. I think thats what he is intending, but there is alot of fact presented and its fresh, still fresh.

Thoughts: Still good, great read
Stars: First time: * * * * *, Second Time: * * * * 1/2


I climbed up a local mountain here on my break that was about 9,000 feet high, and then stared at all the 15,000 + mountains the surround where I live. That day I went to my 5th Gelupka monestary (there is only one left) and help explain some of the images and what not to a local "Y.uth wi.h a M.ssion" team. It was good to be able to help explain some of the stuff that I have been reading about for so long.

Bands for the week:
1. Fight Star
2. The rookie of the Year
3. The Tide
4. Fielding
5. Explosions in the Sky (mmmhmmm!)
6. Tim Hughes ( I love his newest Cd)
7. Kristian Stanfill
8. Derek Webb

I get home in 3 months to this day, basicly. Its flown by in so many regards. I think I'm tired of writing, im really sorry about 3 months of inactivity


Brian


Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The Moon is Down...


Howdy folks,


I hope all is well with you. This is the first update on this thing in like three months. Alot has happened and I will attempt to talk about a little of it all.


I visited Lhasa and 5 other Tibetan cities in the T.A.R. (Tibetan Autonomous Region). The whole trip was awesome and the Father showed me so much about himself there. I remember being in small towns and just remembering that God loves all these people and that JC died for them. I then asked the question who is going to go to these people.

I think I'm going to just post my last update on here so that I dont have to write as much. BTW, if you arent getting my update and you want to email me at b.hirschy@swissmail.org with the heading "I WANT ON YOUR LIST!"

BRIAN


PS

If anyone has a suggestion to host pictures please let me know because my account has turned stupid on me and wont allow me to post any more pictures... Again, email me at b.hirschy@swissmail.org

******* UPDATE BEGINS HERE *******


Hello again Friends!

Much has happened in the last month and a half. I got back from my trip around the middle of last month. After that I had a good chance to actually rest for about a week. The truth is that I needed it. The last three weeks have seemed busier than when I'm teaching and everything is in full swing. Anyways, let me get you up to speed on what has been going on.

As you know I left for Lhasa, Everest, and several small towns in the T.A.R. (Tibetan Autonomous Region) on the 30th of December. From Xining we took a train to Gormul. This is when the real adventure started for us. There are many many different ways to get from Gormul to Lhasa, all of which are more than uncomfortable really. We ended up in a small (VERY small) van. Honestly the road from Gormul to Lhasa was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my entire life. We followed a mountain range all the way down and it was just amazing to stare at 18,000 + feet mountains almost all the way there. After 30 hours in cramped vehicles we arrived in Lhasa around 3 am on the Jan 1st 2006. I spent my new years in a cramped van while the driver blasted Chinese techno music. I will never forget this new years!

We spent 4 days initially in Lhasa. I had asked the Father to really let me see the culture and to really see the Spiritual state of T.bet. The Father was absolutely faithful to show me this. During my first four days in Lhasa we visited two of the main monasteries in the Gelugpa sect of Tibetan Buddhism. The Gelugpa sect is the main sect in Tibetan Buddhism. The 14th Dalai Llama is the head of this sect. We also visited the Potala Palace as well as several holy places in Tibetan Buddhism. The neat thing to me was that I met up with two of my Tibetan friends that live in Lhasa. Both are Buddhist. It was neat in the fact that both have studied Tibetan Buddhism and Tibetan History in University here so they were able to explain everything that we saw. It was very sad in the fact that they are both sold out to Tibetan Buddhism. Like I have said in other emails, its virtually impossible in the mind of a Tibetan to separate being a Tibetan with being a Tibetan Buddhist. They are one in the same in the minds of the Tibetan people. In my mind, this is one of the greatest acts of deception possible. You would be amazed at the amount of Tibetans that here the message of JC and are in agreement with all parts of it; even understanding it completely but in their minds there is no way to be a Tibetan and not be Buddhist. Even last week I heard a friend talk about sharing with a Tibetan and their exact reply was "It's impossible to live here and be a Chr.stian." We truly fight against something that is beyond our flesh and in this case prayer is our most powerful tool. Please please beg the Father to remove the lies presented to the Tibetan people.

On the 6th of January we left Lhasa headed for Mount Everest base camp. I spent 7 days in a Land Cruiser. We stayed the night in 4 different Tibetan towns along the way to Everest. If you ever get the chance to read "Seven Years in Tibet" I would highly recommend it. The book paints a remarkably accurate description of the landscape as well as the people that inhabit it. It was amazing to see nomads who have never seen a white person before in there life. In these places I asked the Father to really show me Tibetan culture. Once again he was perfectly faithful. I was able to talk to Tibetans from all over Tibet and to be able to share culture. The most amazing thing to me was that for 8 straight days we didn't drop below 14,000 feet nor did we see any real plant life. The Tibetan landscape during winter has been described to me by friend as "the surface of the moon." This a very accurate description. The amazing part is that the Tibetans scratch out an existence in this climate and landscape.

Another thing that struck me like a ton of bricks was that there really is no one among these people, among the nomads, among the small Tibetan villages, among the herders and sheep farmers sharing the good news! The Father used a simple conversation in a VERY small town called Shigar to touch my heart. Shigar is a town about 125 km north of Everest. We had stopped in Shigar around 2 p.m. that day in preparation for Everst Base Camp the next day. Shigar has 10 buildings and about 35 people living in the town. We had around 9 hours of day light to burn in this town. Because China is one time zone, when you go that far west the sun doesn't go down until around 8 pm. I ended up talking to some of the local boys who spoke decent Chinese for a while. In a joking manner I asked then which way I should go to get to Beijing and pointed in the direction of Nepal. They responded with "Yes, I think so." being dead serious. Later on one of them asked me where Beijing was. I was absolutely shocked. I then asked them if that had been to some of the nearby surrounding towns and villages to which some of them replied that they had never been that far. Some of these boys and teenagers had never been farther than 25 kilometers away from Shigar and if they had, it certainly wasn't in the direction of civilization. Later that night the Father broke my heart with "Who will share with these people? I love them you know." Who is going to go to the small villages in the middle of nowhere like Shigar and several of the other towns we visited. Who is going to go there? Once again, we must ask the Father to raise up laborers for the harvest.

On the trip from Lhasa to Everest I was able to stop at two of the other main Gelugpa monasteries. The Father kept breaking my heart over and over for the Tibetan people and for the lies that that hold as truth. Most Tibetans have no clue what they worship. Most Tibetans have no clue about the cornerstones of Tibetan Buddhism at all. The thing that was absolutely crushing to me was this fact. Most of them don't have a clue but if you are a Tibetan you embrace Tibetan Buddhism and do your best to follow what you know. The Tibetan people need your prayers!

We spent around 6 hours at Everst Base Camp. I was incredibly overdressed for the event, but nonetheless I was well prepared. I wore three pairs of pants as well as 4 shirts and a heavy coat. Because the sun was out the temperature felt like it was around 60 degrees. Seriously, I was burning alive!! The difference in the temperature in the shade is amazing. The actual air temperature was right around freezing but It felt like it was 55 to 60 degrees. If you see my pictures I'm wearing two shirts because I had to shed so many layers. My heart was in a constant state of worship for those 6 hours. I couldn't stop starring at the mountain and thinking about how marvelously made it was! What an amazing creator!

We got back into Lhasa on the 13th. We met back up with our Tibetan friends and spent most of time walking around the city. Because Lhasa is the center for Tibetan Spirituality the city is packed with pilgrims from everywhere in Tibet. It was absolutely amazing to see the culture and to think that two people who are both Tibetan could live almost 1400 km away from each other. Tibet is HUGE!!

I arrived back in Xining on the 17th of January and spent the next few days getting reacquainted with a Chinese/Tibetan city. I slept for about 3 days straight and enjoyed a heater for the first time in almost 20 days. Most of the places that we stayed at our our trip lacked heat. It's just the way they do it down there. We didn't even have a Yak dung stove!

The next two weeks were spent building relationships with students who stayed in town as well as with Spring Festival activities. Spring festival encompasses several celebrations such as Chinese new year and the Lantern Festival. Most Chinese people get off for around 2 weeks to celebrate the new year. It's a time where many people travel back home to be with their families. I ended up eating dinner with my landlord's family who lives directly below me on several occasions. These weeks were spent catching up on reading as well. I've been reading almost everything I can get my hands on about Tibetan culture and history. It's been an absolute blessing to be able to understand more and more about the culture of my co-workers and students.

Chinese New Year was the 29th of January. For the last month and a half all I have heard is FIREWORKS!! Mostly just firecrackers. The night of the 28th was the craziest thing I have ever seen in my entire life. It absolutely blew the 4th of July out of the water in my opinion. Everyone was shooting of fireworks and honestly it sounded like a war zone. I couldn't hear and thing for almost 2 hours because so many people were setting of so many fireworks. I have some video footage that I will try to post to the web as soon as possible.

Yesterday evening was the Lantern Festival. I'm still not sure what it celebrates other than THOUSANDS of Chinese people walking around holding lanterns. I helped a family manage their children through the crowd all evening. It was fun to see so many Chinese and Tibetans out enjoying the festival. The festival is like a fair that is about 7 miles long.

In other news, I start official work at the factory tomorrow. I will be setting up information systems as well as web--based inventory systems for the company. Teaching starts the 1st of March. I will be very busy for the next 4 months. Please remember me in your prayers!

Also, please remember to pray for the following things

1. Students -- Most of our students live in other places. Please pray for them as they return. Also pray spiritual protection over them
2. My work -- I have a VERY busy work schedule for the next four months. Please pray that the Father sustains me
3. Teams -- Over the next 5 months several teams will be in and out of XN. Please pray that the Father brings people what he wants here
4. Laborers -- Beseech the Lord of the Harvest!!

Also, If you are interested in Tibetan History and culture I suggest the following books!

1. High Adventures In T.bet
2. The Dragon in the Land of the Snow
3. Seven Years in Tibet
4. Tibet, Tibet
5. The Tibetan Empire in Central Asia
6. Sharing JC in the Buddhist World
7. G.d Spoke Tibetan
8. Biography's "The Dalai Lama"

If you are interested in a more comprehensive list please email me. There are several other books that I have read over the last few months that I can't think of at the moment.

Thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers!

In Love,
Brian M. Hirschy

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Hallow!



I think the first thing that you would need to remember when coming to China (Xining specifically) is that little kids like to scream "Hallow" at you. I think they learn this at an early age because EVERY STINK CHILD KNOWS IT. Even like super young kids have said this to me. When did "Hello" have an "a"? Most of the time they will call you foreigner in a slightly rude way thinking you don't know any Chinese. This makes for possible humurous responses on my part. Me and my buddy Jamin have come up with some amazing responses. In tradition with making semi-witty (maybe not) lists, I have come up with the top 5 best responses to this daily event:

When a Child says "hallow" or "Foreigner"

1. Ask in Chinese : "What does "hallow" mean??" (response to hello)
2. Start looking around quickly and scream "Where?!?" (response to foreigner)
3. Point at them and snicker and say "Foreigner!" in Chinese. (response to hello)
4. Ask in Chinese : "Oh Hi, how are you, would you like to chat? I see you know how to speak English!" (response to hello)
5. Responde in Chinese: "I am Chinese!! What are you?" (response to anything)


We have also had some good laughs with asking taxi drivers how much it would be for a ride to Lhasa or to Bei Jing. I think my favorite conversation was between Jamin and a taxi driver... It went as such

Taxi Driver: "Are you American?"
Jamin: "Yeah, I'm American. What about you, are you Chinese?"
Taxi Driver: *chuckle* "Yes, Im Chinese"
Jamin: "Weird, I saw a Chinese guy the other day! Infact, I had a Chinese taxi driver just yesterday!"
Taxi Driver: *confusing and laughing* "Really??"
Jamin: "Yeah man, there are more and more of those chinese people around here"

Taxi driver humor is really funny to be honest




******Real News*******

As if what I was talking about wasnt real news.... But anways. Ive been sick for 2 straight days. I threw up 4 times in about 6 hours the other night. It was just about horrible to be perfectly honest. It was either severe food poisoning or the stomach flu. I was NOT happy.

I'm really leaving for Mount FREAK'N Everest in 16 days. I'm going to spend 4 days in Lhasa then I'm going to head straight down to Everest Base Camp. I will actually spend a night at the highest Monestary in the entier world. It is actually a guest house off to the side of it, so I think we are okay. We are going to try to get some really good shots of Everest at night. There are a ton of really great places we are going to stop along the way. I'm so incredibly excited.

Please remember to pray about a few specific things about this trip. I'm going with a guy who is super educated about Tibetan culture and living so im hoping to spend three weeks with him just soaking stuff up. I really hope that this will be a mobilization opp. for me. I really want to be able to tell people about deep Tibet and what life is like there and what the Father sees in it all. Pray that this would be accomplished. Also pray that we dont get sick. We will be on a bus for a day, a train for a day, and a land cruiser for about 8 days.... and then a bus, a train, etc etc.

Feb 1st I start 25 hours of work a week at the factory building some information systems for them as well as processes for gathering information. It should be really stressful to be honest. Chinese people dont think the way we do and processes are sometimes.... not so much that. I will also be teaching 8 hours a week in the evenings. I love it.

My students have become some of the funniest people on the face of the planet. They say these weird things that make me just die laughing right in the middle of class. Ill have to get some of my quotes up here at some time.

Christmas in Xining is an interesting time. I saw a sign today that said "Messing Christmas!" It was supposed to say Merry Xmas surely, but the gov'n kinda just wont let that stuff happen. I have a weird picture of me infront of it... Ill post it really soon. Everyone wants to know who "Old Man Christmas" is. Its been a good opp. to talk about the real reason of it all.



BTW! Harkey and Harper community groups get a huge gold star for sending us candy and Christmas stuff. Three Cheers

--Brian

Monday, November 28, 2005

That time of year...

Well, it is almost that time of year when you guys over there in that big ol' island called america have to start shopping for all those crazy presents that you will give. Im sure some of you fellers are into the xbox 360. They are made here but the only way I could ever get my hands on them would to be to rob a factory where they are made. The gov'n probably has to check to make sure the boxes aren't stuffed with g.spel tracks or something like that. Gah

Anyways, I was listening to some xmas music the other day. Im going to start working some Xmas songs into our weekly meetings and what not. I forgot that I had downloaded a song by Jimmy Eat World called "If you were born today..." Man, for some reason this song really tugs at my heartstrings. Jim, the lead singer of JEW has laced his songs for years with religious hints as well as hints that he's been searching for the truth for years. This ontop of a billion other reasons made me really like the song

Without further delay:

If you were born today
We'd kill you by age eight
Never get the chance to say

Joy to the world and
Peace on the earth
Forgive them for they know not what they do

Blessed are the meek and
Blessed are the humble
Blessed are the ninety and nine

Deny the flesh
Deny all that's evil
Tonight you'll deny me thrice

If you were born today
We'd kill you by age eight
You'd never have the chance to say... to say...

Ooooo...

Joy to the world (If you were born today)
Peace on the earth (We'd kill you by age eight)
Never get the chance to say...

Ooooo.....

You know, it came out on a Xmas compilation cd. All the other songs were really cheery and "I'll be home for Xmas"-esque and "Don't decorate the tree without me because I'm on my way home from somewhere where it snows all the time and we have a 28 lb turkey for xmas dinner every year." It made this song stick out all the more. It was like, "So we always forget the true meaning of xmas and we would probably try to kill Jesus." It was an incredibly sobering song for me. I found myself really remembering what this is all about.

You know, I was just remembering some things about our Saviour the other day. The truth of the matter is that hes had this whole thing figured out from the beginning of time.

"And I will put enmity between you and the woman and between your offspring and hers; he will crush your head, and you will strike his heel."

You know the cool thing about this is the fact that the God isn't saying this as a response to what Satan has done, he is saying it as if it's been known all along, that The Son of Man will crush and defeat death. Thats just awesome to me. I think that is what I feel like I need to remember this xmas.

Cheers,
Brian

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Piano is the wave of the future

I have this friend who has a fetish, maybe even a talent, at being able to recreate pictures in Microsoft paint. Let me preface this post by saying that microsoft paint is the worst paint program out there, nor do I think that it was ever intended to be used for anything other than 5 minutes of amusement. Nonetheless, my friend is freakishly good at making little sketches of himself doing random things like flipping burgers or posing as a pirate or something else like that. The only reason I am commenting on this is the fact that I find it incredibly facinating that he does this. It almost makes me wish I didnt have a Powerbook so I wouldnt have to always use Photoshop or something.

This started me thinking about the weird talents that people have. I have another friend that is incredibly good at spinning things around on his thumbs and on his hands and generally being a Circus act. I can thump incredibly hard and have been know from time to time in my college days to break salt and pepper shakers with my thumps. I bet if I thought about it further and further I would realize that most of the people i know are incredibly talented in incredibly useless ways.

So, my faithful readers (We are up to 6!) tell me what your weird talents are! I would sincerely love to know!

Monday, October 31, 2005

When I was a boy...

One thing that I've noticed about myself here in China is that about one or two nights out of the week I have to stay up late and just chill to music. The other nights I have to be playing music or something. I've actually experienced more quietness here in our house/apartment that I have in a long time. You have to remember that I spent 4 years in a freshmen dorm on the campus of The University of Arkansas. You have to remember that. Just have to...

One of the most rewarding and special things for me when I listen to music is to go back into "The Musical Archives" if you will. You know, to go back to those bands that you listened to in High School and maybe my freshman year of college. For my own amusement and maybe for the sake of making this post seem like every other post I have where there is a Top 10 list, I'm going to make a Top 10 list. Here is my Top 10 list... (maybe one day I will have so many Top 10 lists that I can do a Top 10 Top 10's list)


Top 10 Bands of The Year 2000...

Okay, the list hasn't started yet (obviously). I just wanted to point out the fact that I feel like a huge dork because when I thought about how long ago 5 years was, I was thinking like 1996 at least... But when I typed 2000 I realized that the shock value of doing this no where near the shock value any year before the year 2000. Having explained this to you all, further concretes my Dork status.

Here we go...

Top 10 Bands of the Year 2000
(No Order)

1. Appleseed Cast (Not the Appleseed Cast... ask me later)
2. Pop Unknown
3. The Gloria Record
4. Sunny Day Real Estate
5. Zao
6. Mineral
7. Jimmy Eat World
8. Elliott
9. Cool Hand Luke
10. Further Seems Forever

So you may have thought this was all I was going to write about, but you are wrong. This is a two-part post!!

I was listening to Mineral tonight mostly because they make me happy and they have lyrics that rival almost anyone. One of my favorite lyrics that they write is from a song called & Serenading. Here they are:


When I was a boy I saw things
That no one else could see
So why am I so blind at twenty-two
To the hope that is all around me

When I was a boy I could hear
Symphonies in seashells
So why am I so deaf at twenty-two
To the sound of the driving snow
That drives me home to you

These lyrics really capture me because they express so many ideas into one. They express the idea that the innocence of a child is somehow lost. Maybe they even ask the question,, "Which is better?!" You know, we all have to grow up, I'm not questioning that. There is certainly value to having a childlike heart. The Word speaks pretty clearly about this. I don’t know, I could go on this line all night...

Maybe the lyrics are expressing a sincere concern for himself. Maybe its about knowing himself. Maybe he can't hear the Father as much as he once was able to. "Why could I hear symphonies in seashells when I was young, but cant hear you driving me, cant SEE hope."

Maybe he’s just being nostalgic...
Maybe I'm just being nostalgic...
Maybe I like this because it's nostalgic and I'm being nostalgic...

Nonetheless the Lyrics are beautiful...

What do you think Esther? Since you have time to answer...

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Love is watching someone die...

I've been listening to the new(ish) Death Cab for Cutie cd for about 2 weeks now. I remember when I saw them in concert 4 years ago at Clunk Music Hall in Fayetteville. A lot has changed since then. Death Cab turned into The Postal Service, which then made everyone listen to DCFC and then came the 16 year old teeny-boppers riding around in there Geo Metros blasting it without understanding it. Anyways, enough about how my originality was destroyed...

There is a song called "What Sarah Said" on the album that really made me think. I will share the lyrics with you now:

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die?



At first, obviously, the line "Love is watching some one die" stuck out sorely to me. I was like, yeah... that’s not true. But now that I read the rest of the Lyrics its so true. Can you imagine watching someone die? Most people shy away from that kind of things, obviously, and I believe the lyrics do justice displaying that. I really just see this song as the writer being in the third person, just watching the whole situation.

I imagine Sarah and the writer as having a conversation maybe 4 months before the Sarah died about how her death was inevitable and maybe Sarah wondered who was going to watch her die. What a sad, but somehow beautiful thought. All of the sudden you flash forward to when Sarah is actually dying, and the writer is in the waiting room. He is in the waiting room where he couldn’t watch her die. Maybe he feels horrible about it. Maybe he just remembered that she said that and all of the sudden he feels horrible.

I think the truth of the song is that "Love IS watching someone die." Now don’t take this too far and relate it to things other than what I'm talking about. Maybe a log would fall on my roommate Kenton, and he couldn’t move. I wouldn't just watch him die. I think the truth lies in that its a sacrifice to watch someone die. You feel horrible, it's an incredibly hard and possibly scaring situation, but its a sacrifice for the person who is dying. Maybe I am just rambling.

I find the song incredibly beautiful and thought-provoking. What do you think?

Who's gonna watch you die?